living in the real world

Every thing i want for my future is slipping away,
the future is in my hands but  i am not controlling it,
Who is ?
I wish and i dream that every thing will turn out okay,
it never does.
This is the final push ,
This is almost the end,
and the beginning of a new chapter,
each new chapter never starts well,
it starts like Hell.
Every night i wish and dream of actually doing something with my life,
every morning i wake up,

I look in the mirror and go Naaaah that won't be me.